I’ve spent 10 days in Yunnan, with my mother. The original idea is to attend Vincent and Lily’s wedding. It was wonderful. Indeed it was the best wedding I’ve ever been invited. A beautiful bride and a charming groom with their respected guests were all happily celebrating this special moment. At the really last minute I’ve been informed to be the best man. Hence I wrapped my suit with me on broad the flight to Kunming.

I have to say thank you to Vincent and Lily. Thanks for invited me to be part of your wonderful moment.

I have to say sorry to Vincent and Lily. I used your wedding as an excuse to escape from my mess.

I feel like Jake in <Family Man>. Wondering what would happen if I choose the other path. But God did not show up to give me a glimpse of the possible future. Maybe I’m not considered as a good man…Maybe I’m not deserved…

I feel like Sasuki in <Naruto>, losing my privilege day after day because I am overtaken by someone else. Thereafter, I may become a monster fulfilled by anger, revenge, and hates…finally lose the way of life…

I hate lies and deceits. They make me feel like I was betrayed. I can tolerate explanations and excuses but please just don’t lie to me. You are the only person I care and they hurt…

Now, I have to move on. Life goes on and the only thing I can do is keep moving. The world is not going to stop even I was damaged like the buildings in the Sichuan earthquake. I have to move on. I cannot upset my parents because I’m trapping by emotional turmoil…

Now our future is changed. I will let you go as I promised, set you free. Maybe I was not qualified to say that at the first place. Cause all those fantasies were purely dreams and I am eventually wake up for the real…

Any hell, thanks for the dreams and nightmares. They were pleasures and sadness. Thanks for everything you shared with me…

From Hanson

With my favorite song…

Nothing ever happened…

Hey, you once called me your baby

Say it for the last time

With all your strength and meaning in this time…

Hey, you once promised me the world

But I never asked for it, but I never asked for it…

Hey, you once praised me beautiful

Why I’d get get weaker

Why would I get weaker…

Oh Please, please don’t, I am so scared

Scared you’re too perfect for me

Or am I too naive for you…

Either way it’s too late

Too late for regrets

I’m hurt…

Leave me out of love

Leave love out

Leave me out…

Hey, let’s just pretend

Nothing ever happened

Nothing ever happened…

Hey, let’s just pretend

Nothing ever happened

Nothing, nothing, never ever happened…